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Tomorrows (technically todays) to-do list

-Clean litter box
-DP meditation
-Clean dishes f
-Clean table/desk
-Put away floor fans and break out the space heater
-Call landlord about furance in bedroom and how it never works.
-Do nails, or at least remove old nail polish
-Call Misty back
-Call Earnest back
-Call Soap Makers and ask about my back ordered soap (bitches!)
-Offerings
-Make shopping list
-Break out the winter clothes.

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So after the game and hanging out with Dashboard Confessional last night, I proceeded to get really drunk.

Probably not some of my finer moments. It felt good, in a pressure relieving sort of way. But stillll

Ok, definatly not. Nothing really bad happened I guess, but.....

I dunno. I guess knowing the right thing to do, and doing it......

Chapter 2: Let it go.
Chapter 3: Easier said than done.

Wisconsin Game Day

I'm working with Skaki 11-7......

That's before, during, and after the game....
So I expect mad tips at least.

Nothing like the smell of Napalm in the morning...


More updating to come later.

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sitting in my glasshouse
while your ghost is sleeping down the hall
watching the little birds fly
kamikaze missions into the walls
think i'm gonna stay in today
sit on my couch and watch them fall

[drums]
life just keeps getting harder
keeps getting harder to hide
darker it is around me
easier it is to see inside
and outside the glass
the whole world is magnified
and its barely an inch
from here to the other side

[chorus]
guess that push has come to this
so i guess this must be shove
but before you throw those stones at me
tell me what's your house made of
and before you'll know what i'm doing wrong
you're going to have to get in line
for the purposes of this song
lets just say i'm doing fine
sure, i'm doing fine

trapped in my glasshouse
crowd has been gathering since dawn
make a pot of coffee
while catastrophe awaits me out on the lawn
think i'm going to stay in today
pretend like i don't know what's going on

seems that push has come to this
so i guess this must be shove
but before you throw those stones at me
tell me what's your house made of
and before you'll know what i'm doing wrong
you're going to have to get in line
so for the purposes of this song
lets just say i'm doing fine
sure, i'm doing fine

sitting in my glass house
sitting in my glass house

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it just kinda makes sense to be depressed in a way. I dunno, it's not a sad depression, persay. just a.....quiet, stillness. As if things are coming to an end.

I imagine it's gonna be a long night at work though. meh.

241. No one really plays fair anymore!

What's fair?

Samhain 2007

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Let it go, let it roll right off your shoulders, don't you know, the hardest part is over....

Cloudy afternoons.

I have to work today, 4-12. So much eww. It's gonna drag by, I know it. At least I only work 5-8 tomorrow. Tomorrow is Andreas costume party and Sunday is the Samhain rite, I need to figure out what I'm taking to potluck and make it. I know it's gonna be cold, so I want to take something warm, but I don't have a crock pot or anything. Le sad.

School is going ok, if not a bit tedious and boring. Money scared me cause there is never enough of it, as of now, I am about 300 short on rent money. Oif. Last night I thought my car was towed cause I forgot where I parked, and I even called the place asking about a black 1998 ford contour, and they said they had one. So I'm sitting on my back porch at like 1am, thinking about the phone bill I haven't paid yet, and the tow fee, and hyperventalating waiting for sean to come get me to go get it out of impound. i get in the car, we start to leave, and as we pull onto neil, I realize that I parked on Neil, and my car is sitting safely outside. I felt like an idiot, but I also felt utter relief at the 150$ that could stay in my bank account. I was also grateful for his willingness to help at 1 am.

Me and Sean have been hanging out a ton lately. Does his wife know? Not really. Don't get me wrong, I don't approve of this. I don't approve of being lied about, and I don't spprove of someone lying to their spouse. But the idea of never speaking to him again fills me with such pain that I become incapacitated.....no that's not the word, as I am still able to function. But I become full of pain, and feelings of abandonment, and enough tears to fill Danu's river.
And I don't know what to do. Advice welcome.

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